Wednesday, May 30, 2012

My Words: Seeing Clearly Now

“So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.” – Hebrews 4:16.

It started out like a migraine. As I drove home from a Sunday school party, I really thought a nap and pain meds would take care of the headache and funny “ink blob” floating in the bottom corner of my right eye.

Little did I know, less than 24 hours later, I would have emergency surgery to repair a “micro tear” in my retina. Suddenly my world began to spin out of my control.

Instead of focusing on a new job and organizing a cluttered apartment, I found myself spending the next week recovering at the home of a new-to-me co-worker. Unable to see, drive or even be by myself, I felt quite dependant on others. Not exactly a comfortable experience for a self-sufficient, type-A gal.

It was like looking through a Vaseline coated window. Nothing was in focus. I was terrified my vision would remain distorted. I cried. I begged. I prayed. It became clear that the peace I sought would come when I completely surrendered the entire situation to God.

Was it easy? No. I continually laid my worries and fears at the “throne of God” and then quickly picked them back up. But when I finally surrendered, God’s mercy and grace began to pour into my soul. Right when I needed it the most. Slowly, I began to see - not physically – but through the actions and care of new co-workers and acquaintances. God healed from the inside out.

Now months after the surgery, I am amazed at how God continues to work in my life. I’m constantly reminded when I drop my baggage, God is there to carry it for me. God’s grace and mercy is there when I need it most.

Action Step: Pick up a rock. Imagine it’s the situation you need to give to God. Squeeze it tight in your hand. Say a prayer, release your grip and put it down for good – along with your anxieties. If all else fails, go outside to a clear spot and toss the rock (and worries) away as far as you can throw it!

Editor's Note: I originally wrote this for the possible submission into a book of devos. It didn't "make" the cut, but I still wanted to share the thoughts behind it.


  1. Denni and the kidlets love you, Kaylea! And we hope we can "see" you soon, too!

  2. You are awesome and wonderfully made. I appreciate how you are able to articulate your faith and are so willing to share it.

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    1. Thank you for the encouragement. I appreciate your comment.


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