“So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.” – Hebrews 4:16.
It started out like a migraine. As I drove home from a Sunday school party, I really thought a nap and pain meds would take care of the headache and funny “ink blob” floating in the bottom corner of my right eye.
Little did I know, less than 24 hours later, I would have emergency surgery to repair a “micro tear” in my retina. Suddenly my world began to spin out of my control.
Instead of focusing on a new job and organizing a cluttered apartment, I found myself spending the next week recovering at the home of a new-to-me co-worker. Unable to see, drive or even be by myself, I felt quite dependant on others. Not exactly a comfortable experience for a self-sufficient, type-A gal.
It was like looking through a Vaseline coated window. Nothing was in focus. I was terrified my vision would remain distorted. I cried. I begged. I prayed. It became clear that the peace I sought would come when I completely surrendered the entire situation to God.
Was it easy? No. I continually laid my worries and fears at the “throne of God” and then quickly picked them back up. But when I finally surrendered, God’s mercy and grace began to pour into my soul. Right when I needed it the most. Slowly, I began to see - not physically – but through the actions and care of new co-workers and acquaintances. God healed from the inside out.
Now months after the surgery, I am amazed at how God continues to work in my life. I’m constantly reminded when I drop my baggage, God is there to carry it for me. God’s grace and mercy is there when I need it most.
Action Step: Pick up a rock. Imagine it’s the situation you need to give to God. Squeeze it tight in your hand. Say a prayer, release your grip and put it down for good – along with your anxieties. If all else fails, go outside to a clear spot and toss the rock (and worries) away as far as you can throw it!
Editor's Note: I originally wrote this for the possible submission into a book of devos. It didn't "make" the cut, but I still wanted to share the thoughts behind it.